I feel completely worthless, like I don’t even matter. And I’ve felt this way before, but now it’s different. I really hate to say it’s all about the girl, but it is; I’ve loved her for two years, she’s been the only reason I get up in the morning (just to put it simply). And when I had her, I finally felt important. I felt like I mattered. I was finally number 1 in someone’s eyes.
But now I’m not number 1, despite everything she says. I’m back to where I was before, but it’s worse because I lost what little I actually had. I don’t think I’m important to anyone really. And maybe I’m just oversensitive
I probably am but still, I hate how unimportant I am, how I’m not special to anyone.
And I hate that I still love her. Every day, it kills me a little more. And I try to get over her, I focus on the things that I hate. But most of the things that make me hate her are why I love her in the first place. I like normal people because they’re easier to deal with, but her; she’s a freak. She is the weirdest person I have ever met, full of annoying little quirks and defects, and she is just so strange. Completely unlike other people I know. She is so far from perfect, it’s not even funny. And that’s exactly why I love her.